I get so tired of always trying to fight the good fight while we elect people who see my kind as criminals, cheats, lazy, useless and unworthy of life.
I get so tired of doing my duty and voting, while others don't bother, then bitch if they don't like the results.
I get so tired of putting on a brave face while wondering what day will I get arrested or die for living while Black.
I get so tired of fighting for legislation that's supposed to protect my rights as a human being, but must be ineffective, or the politicians won't support it.
I get so tired of being a person with virtually no privilege fighting for rights and things that only the privileged will truly enjoy the benefits of.
I get so tired of being trashed as a crazy troublemaker, yet the ones who dish on me gladly and blithely reap the benefits of what I and others put our bodies and lives on the line to get.
I get so tired of hearing people glibly say, don't mourn, organize, when the majority of the ones spouting it won't be in the trenches with me.
I get so tired of bearing up as a proud disabled womyn when precious kids with disabilities continue to be murdered, yet, I'm supposed to have compassion for the monster masquerading as a parent who did it.
I get so tired of people twisting my words, thoughts and intentions when I say that suicide is a tragedy, no matter who does it.
I get so tired of fighting for the rights of people who think they're better than me because I'm a Black disabled lesbian.
I get so tired of seeing calls for increasing the minimum wage, knowing that in many instances, it won't apply to people with disabilities.
I get so tired of hearing people say, put it in god's hands when god helps those who helps themselves and besides that, I'm everything that he hates.
I get so tired of working for good, when evil keeps prevailing.
I get so tired of always having to represent, be articulate, or be on point because I'm being watched and I'm representing my race.
I get so tired of being told I live in a free nation when people are not truly free to start a real revolution.
I get so tired of knowing that each day I open my eyes, I'll have to struggle and fight against hatred and bigotry while privileged people remain oblivious, or get angry and defensive when I point things out to them.
I get so tired of people not understanding that I don't always have the spoons, the energy to organize, to fight, to struggle.
I get so tired of being so tired, yet knowing that I have no choice but to go on, so, go on, I will - fighting the good fight, being brave, organizing, being a good person, doing good things, speaking my truth to power and being in solidarity with my sisters and brothers in the struggle.